Who’s Responsible Your For Feelings

One of our greatest challenges is to understand what it means to take personal responsibility for our own feelings and behaviour. This is especially difficult when someone is behaving in a way that feels unloving to us attacking, blaming, lying, laying guilt on others, and so on. It is so easy to believe that our unhappy feelings are coming from their behaviour rather than from our own response to their behaviour.

If we pay careful attention to our feelings, we will discover that it is not another's behaviour that is creating our unhappiness but rather our own unloving response. When we respond to another's unloving  behaviour by getting angry, blaming, withdrawing, complying, or ignoring it, we will likely end up feeling badly. Our own unloving behaviour towards another is also unloving toward our own Inner Child. For example, if we respond to another's anger by getting angry back rather than setting an appropriate limit against being attacked, our Inner Child will not feel safe. We have not responded from our loving Adult in a way that leads to being treated respectfully. Instead, we have responded from our wounded self, trying to have control over the other's  behaviour. Since the other is likely to respond with more anger or withdrawal, our Inner Child ends up feeling badly from the interaction.

I have discovered that whenever I do not set good limits against being treated badly - such as disengaging from the interaction and stating that I don't want to talk when there is anger or blame - or I respond with anger or blame to another's anger or blame, I feel awful. It is so easy to think I feel awful because of how I have been treated by the other person rather than because of how I am treating myself and others. When my Adult is present and I respond to another's anger, blame or other violating  behaviour by either moving into an intent to learn and/or setting an appropriate limit without anger, shaming or blaming, I feel terrific. In fact, I feel on top of the world. It has been deeply gratifying to me to know that my feelings are always my responsibility because then I can do something about feeling badly. I can practice responding lovingly no matter what.

It is so easy to revert to our wounded self and claim that this time my feelings are not my responsibility. This time it really is the other person's fault. This time they have gone too far and no one could expect me to feel okay in this situation. But each time I manage to keep my Adult present and take good care of my Inner Child, the lesson hits home anew -- all my feelings really are my responsibility.

 

Author: Margaret Paul, Ph.D. Site: innerbonding